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Brace yourself to take a deep dive of my thoughts which involve different waves of emotions. I rarely write these days. Partly because I try hard not to embrace my inner demon and also I have my other online diary which happens to be my twitter. Here is when I wish to write more than 140 characters. I ain't no Lang Leav, but we sure share the same emotions. ;) email me at najmiezamrose@yahoo.com

Monday, May 27, 2013

Yet, another story of my life

Hello everyone,

So yeahhhhhh, I like to write during the loneliest hours after everyone has dozed off and before everyone wakes up. In between, I'm all by myself doing random stuffs like writing entries, drawing and oh yea,...exercising (simple cardio). I really enjoy my personal space and I hate it when someone doesn't respect my simple request.

Most of the time, I prefer to be alone and let my thoughts just wonder around freely. I don't know why I'm so comfortable sitting alone at one corner doing my own work in front of my desk. I do mingle around but only with certain people. Maybe I'm just too afraid of being too vulnerable to everyone. I don't know..I can't tell. Many times I remind myself not to let my unstable emotions take over me. It should be the other way around.

Few days back when I was in train for almost everyday, I've seen so many types of person I never thought exist in life. There were times I wish I can write a song, I'll express every single feelings I have thru the lyrics of the songs. Unfortunately I'm not that lucky enough to come out with lyrics about story of my life. It seems that nowadays people don't see you the way I still see a person. But yet, Im still inspired with what I've seen lately. Too many scenes I've witnessed. Some reflects me and some just something I couldn't be bothered.    

For now that will be all. Thanks for spending some time reading my little thought rant/ Sorry for having to bear with it. Peace/love (:

Monday, May 20, 2013

Morning Remedy (:

"It's so hard to talk or explain something when
 you can't find the right words to put as sentence.
 That's above and beyond everything else and
 it's not a mental complaint-
 it's a personal thing.
 Exactly the same like it's physically hard to
 open your mouth and
 make the words come out. 
In my case, words don't come out smoothly and
 in conjunction with the brain as normal people's words do. 
They come out in chunks as if
 from a crushed-ice dispenser,
 you stumble upon on them as they gather behind your lower lips.
 The last thing you could do is just keep quiet."

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Another empty letter

"Knowing you is more than enough but to not knowing you I think is better"

Sounds familiar to you? NO? oh well it does to me. The person I don't want to be around with is the person I got to see the most. Mostly every single f* day. Some people they just come for a while and disappear like they were never exist but some they just stay even when you think they are not. Maybe they are there, watching you from distances. Scary isn't it? but it is the reality you cannot run away from.

 I'm so used to feeling like an outsider and that is just the way I like it. Sometimes, I just can't ind anyone to get along with because most of the time I am more comfortable mixing around with my usual faces. I can hardly explain types of person I usually get along with. It usually happens without I realize. But just to be clear, I do get along pretty well with most people I know but still, I find it weird or maybe more to awkward to hangout with someone you barely talk to. sooooo yeahhhhhhh.