Never been in a relationship does not mean the person knows nothing about it. Sometimes when you have seen too much, you tend to avoid things that are unnecessary in life.
I've been getting a lot of "kau tau apa Nemmy, you never had a boyfriend before". "Bitch, I wouldn't date people just to get the title of being someone's girlfriend"....
People kept saying that to me as in relationship gets better from one relationship to another. Like hello, I am not blind and neither am I stupid.
I'm trying to skip those chapters where I have to meet few guys before I met the one. No I don't need that. I observe almost everything around me.
Many times I chose to keep observing and teach myself not to get into some dramatic life where everyone is expecting something from someone.
I chose my life path. I chose to be alone. I still have my family
and few friends that treat me like how I want to be treated.
I appreciate those people who were there for me and are still here for me. I know myself and I do not need anyone to know me better, just stop expecting me to
be something that I am not. I am a 22 years old grown
up who has a lot more to treasure and long term goals I need to achieve.
It would be great to have someone to help you along the way,
but if I'm better off solo, Insya Allah that won't stop me.
Trust me, I ain't easy to be someone who looks strong on the outside.
People tend to mistaken you as rude and heartless, but the truth is I only have myself to rely on and I only trust myself on that.