I don't think I can do this any longer. I hate living in denial trying to convince myself that everything is going to be alright when it is not. It has been too long since the last time. I don't want this anymore. I am no longer who I am 5 years ago. Enough is enough I am now ready to move on with my life not wanting to wait anymore. I can barely portray the features since it has been too long. It is nothing like what I have ever imagined. All you had to do was too easy but you blew your chance when you had it. I pushed everyone away because I gave too many chances. Yes, I am sure you'll understand this. No one will ever understand this but you surely will. Because I am writing this to point this to none other. Torn and tired. I am being obvious now and using all the easy words to make you understand. If only I had the courage to delete everything related, things would be easier. Now I am laughing to myself for being such an idiot. But fret not, now that I have figured it out, I'll no longer need this shit. I'm out not for short while but forever.