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Brace yourself to take a deep dive of my thoughts which involve different waves of emotions. I rarely write these days. Partly because I try hard not to embrace my inner demon and also I have my other online diary which happens to be my twitter. Here is when I wish to write more than 140 characters. I ain't no Lang Leav, but we sure share the same emotions. ;) email me at najmiezamrose@yahoo.com

Sunday, May 31, 2015

I've waited for fucking 5 years or more I can't tell but why can't I stop? this is ridiculous yet inevitable. Nothing makes sense anymore. 

#emo

I've been trying to find things that would make me feel better most of the times. But shit happens all the time. I don't know if it is only me or life has decided to be difficult lately. I sometimes beg for my personal space but sometimes being alone makes it harder for me to think sensibly. I don't know what went wrong or where it started but I am turning into something I've been trying to avoid. Oh well I have always been a negative person so what's new huh. 

I'm starting to think that there will be no happiness for me as the future I'm seeing now is all about me building my own life. it's like I've developed a selfish behaviour if that's what people call it nowadays. All I'm planning now is to travel from one places to another on my own, to own a place on my own with my own attic bedroom and to achieve life goals on my own. It seems that own is my new favorite word and I can't help it but to build more on my own. See what I'm trying to say? Ha ha