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Brace yourself to take a deep dive of my thoughts which involve different waves of emotions. I rarely write these days. Partly because I try hard not to embrace my inner demon and also I have my other online diary which happens to be my twitter. Here is when I wish to write more than 140 characters. I ain't no Lang Leav, but we sure share the same emotions. ;) email me at najmiezamrose@yahoo.com

Saturday, July 9, 2016

Lost in my thoughts

I mean no harm to people. But thats what I do best, I guess. I've seen several events that I wish would not happen. If only I took different approach, bad things might not happen. I always think that I can handle things better than anyone else, but God has proven me wrong. Maybe I shouldn't be too hard on myself and to people around me. My habit of pushing people away has finally got me on my knees. I pushed the wrong people and I regret it only when it is already too late. When people have given up on you, there's nothing much you can do, really. Lesson learnt. Now the only thing should be done is to toughen up and get myself together. No one really gives a shit anymore. Why should you, Najmie? Next time when you think of doing something, fucking think about it hundred times. In fact, more than that. 

"Find serendipity, and peace of mind shall be yours."

Sunday, July 3, 2016

Dead mind

I have so much to say and a lot of things going on my head that shouldn't be in there at the first place. I can't explain and even if I could, no one seems to understand. Maybe I'm better off alone. To a place no one will ever find me. To a place no one will ever question my every decision. That way, maybe I won't be a problem to anyone and no one will be mine. Gosh, I wish I'm brave enough to share my anxiety with a person. A person who would listen without judging. I keep wondering why and how but I am yet to find the solution. Sigh.