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Brace yourself to take a deep dive of my thoughts which involve different waves of emotions. I rarely write these days. Partly because I try hard not to embrace my inner demon and also I have my other online diary which happens to be my twitter. Here is when I wish to write more than 140 characters. I ain't no Lang Leav, but we sure share the same emotions. ;) email me at najmiezamrose@yahoo.com

Monday, July 24, 2017

The long overdue write up...

You know how words tend to heal a broken heart? 

Yes. It's a like a therapeutic for me.
Every words I write, I pour my heart onto it.
With every words on the paper or slide, I imagine it with my eyes open.

It's amazing but some people don't know it.
Or maybe they don't get the same feeling when they write.
The first word is always the hardest.
But once you've started, one page is never enough.

It's true, not everyone can write.
I wouldnt say I can, but fuck it, who is there to judge? 
After all, you write to feel alright.
If it helps to ease the pain and forget the other things, why not? 

Again, why not? 

To go faster or slower in life?

There are days when nothing feels right. Not a phone call neither a cheerful surprise could make it up on that day. In my case, in happens quite regularly.

You know like when you have a specific plan on how your day should turn out but someone or something causes it to not happen or maybe a slight change in plan? That breaks my heart too.

Maybe I let the pressure of life's timelines get to me. But it's my nature to follow what I have already planned. My mistake is that I always expect other people to follow my pace. I know I can be so practical and focused in my every day life, but that is simply because I can't bear any more disappointment in my life.

At times, I can be extremely moody that I can't even tell why and how to overcome that. These are the toughest time for me and for people around me. Hence, I would just isolate myself and detach myself from people.

Luckily I have great people who understand me very well which I have no intention to push them away. Having these people around always keep me sane and appreciate my life. :)